Melancholy
I used to be okay,
I used to be strong.
But the walls around me crumbled,
And my life became wrong.
The lies crept in on silent feet.
Poisoning my neurotic mind,
Slowly wrapping me in defeat.
I lied when I said I didn’t love you.
I lied when I said I could move on.
I lied when I said you didn’t matter,
And I lied when I said it didn’t hurt.
You were the catalyst,
Detroying everything in sight.
You broke me down,
And I was too weak to fight.
Now you are gone,
Yet your corrosive effect remains.
I await within my insanity to see you again,
For my blood to race and my heart stop.
I’m just dying for you to get on top.
Own me, control me, violate me.
End the aching and just…
Take me for all I can be.
I surrender myself completely;
Mind, body, and soul.
But you had your chance,
And my weakened morals were worth nothing.
It was simply a meaningless, tormenting dance.
What you still want, I shall never know.
But I would wait for you till the end of eternity,
If only you would tell me so.
