25 posts tagged “hope”
I used to be okay,
I used to be strong.
But the walls around me crumbled,
And my life became wrong.
The lies crept in on silent feet.
Poisoning my neurotic mind,
Slowly wrapping me in defeat.
I lied when I said I didn’t love you.
I lied when I said I could move on.
I lied when I said you didn’t matter,
And I lied when I said it didn’t hurt.
You were the catalyst,
Detroying everything in sight.
You broke me down,
And I was too weak to fight.
Now you are gone,
Yet your corrosive effect remains.
I await within my insanity to see you again,
For my blood to race and my heart stop.
I’m just dying for you to get on top.
Own me, control me, violate me.
End the aching and just…
Take me for all I can be.
I surrender myself completely;
Mind, body, and soul.
But you had your chance,
And my weakened morals were worth nothing.
It was simply a meaningless, tormenting dance.
What you still want, I shall never know.
But I would wait for you till the end of eternity,
If only you would tell me so.
“I’ve found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you”
Sitting, alone, darkness consumes.
No one can see the girl.
With bright eyes.
And one curl.
She’s almost saddened by this.
Her most extrordinary show.
It will go unnoticed.
No one will know.
Till they find her limp body.
Alone in her bed.
The lost memories.
Of the life she’d led.
She wanted to see the pain.
The blood drip from her wrist.
Because she had aimed for her goals.
She aimed, and she missed.
She wants to swallow the peace.
Feel the freedom spread through her veins.
Find an everlasting love.
Take away her pains.
She wants to die alone.
The same way she was always found.
Alone with herself.
No other soul around.
And as she got ready.
She turned out the lights.
To die in the darkness.
To escape all life’s frights.
But when the lights went out.
Some magic occured.
The room lit up.
And a memory was stirred.
She recalled a day.
She’d been talking with a friend.
Talking about life.
How much she wanted it to end.
But her friend said no.
She said I love you.
And you know it.
The stars join us two.
No matter where you are.
When you can see the sky.
Glance at the stars.
And reconcider why.
Why do you want to die?
Where has your meaning gone?
Will it be refound?
Will it rise with suns dawn?
If you have any question.
If you know it could.
Then please hold on.
You know that you should.
Because I love you.
My love is in the star.
It is always in my heart.
Whether near or far.
So when the lights went out.
And you saw the glow.
You knew that those lit up stars.
Were your reason not to go.
So you sat back in bed.
Put the knife aside.
Recapped the pills.
And thought how you almost died.
How you almost gave up.
How you based your life on your past.
Knowing full well.
That the past will never last.
So as you lay there that night.
With a refound hope in your heart.
You knew you could find.
A way to restart.
Your life will start now.
It will be based on stars.
Your past will not matter.
Nor will engraved scars.
Because you love’s in the stars.
And stars never die.
So if you ever question.
That’s your reason why.
You and I are both lonely,
Lost in our own worlds,
Trying to find ourselves,
Trying to find each other.
A sweet dream it would be,
To awaken in your arms,
To be able to kiss your lips,
To have such a precious gift.
I yearn for your company,
Though we are lost in what to do,
Lost in our own worlds,
Let us be lost together.
Take my hand and bid farewell
To confusion and the loneliness,
You and I will finally be one,
Living within our own sweet love.
I used to feel fine
you were to be mine
I need direction
to take me to you
I’m sick of this
I’ve been a puppet on your string for too long
You don’t own me
I’m tired of being strong for you
Now
I’m doing it for me
And if I wanna break down
That’s what I’m gonna do.
You kept telling me to stay quiet
Take a back seat
Hold everyone else together
What about me?
Watching everyone fall apart around me
Couldn’t join in
Just watching it all crumble
A lone pillar in the metaphorical destruction
Arguing over petty shit
A car door is metal
There are more important things
Like life
Health
And family
But you don’t seem to care
Don’t tell me to shut up
For the past month
That’s all I’ve done.
Silence from me on the outside
But inside
Nothing but noise
Anger
Destruction
Collapse
Fear
Pain
Watch my façade
It won’t last long
Its getting old
Watch it crumble like the rest of this fucked up situation
Pain?
Pills numb the pain.
But that’s not the answer
I’m in a cyclone speed mental spiral
down
down
down
Need to find the brake before its too late
Too late
too late..
We’re drifting apart,
But I won’t give up, no
Wherever you are I belong
Love sings us a song
But we fail to sing along
Wherever you go I will follow
So please don’t let it
Please don’t let it go
And if you won’t let it I won’t let it go
Please
don’t let it
Please don’t let it go
And
if you won’t let it I won’t let it go
You
try to be strong
You’ve tried it oh so long
Whatever I do I do it wrong
And love sings our song
So eager to sing along
Whatever you do I know it
So please don’t let it
Please
don’t let it go
Cause if you won’t let it I won’t let it go
Please don’t let it
Please don’t let it go
Cause if you won’t let it I won’t let it go
Don’t let go of life
Let
go of love
Let go of all we have
So
don’t let go of trust
Let go of lust
Let go of all we share
Love is a flame that can’t be tamed
And though we are it’s willing prey, my darling
We are not the ones to blame
Trust is a word all lovers know
The glorious art of staining souls, my darling
We
are not the ones to blame
The more we have the more we want
And the more it hurts our hearts, my baby
It
always ends up in tears
So keep on pretending
Our heaven is worth the waiting
Keep on pretending, it’s alright
So
keep on pretending
It will be the end of our craving
Keep on pretending
It’s alright
When doubts arise the game begins
The one we will never win, my baby
It always ends up in tears
So keep on pretending
Our heaven is worth the waiting
Keep on pretending, it’s alright
So keep on pretending
It will be the end of our craving
Keep on pretending
It’s
alright
Come on…
So keep on pretending
Our
heaven is worth the waiting
Keep on pretending, it’s alright
So keep on pretending
It
will be the end of our craving
Keep on pretending
It’s alright
Love is a flame that can’t be tamed
And though we are it’s willing prey, my darling
We are not the ones to blame
Just one look into your eyes
One look and I’m crying
’cause you’re so beautiful
Just one kiss and I’m alive
One kiss and I’m ready to die
’cause you’re so beautiful
Just one touch and I’m on fire
One touch and I’m crying
’cause you’re so beautiful
Just one smile and I’m wild
One smile and I’m ready to die
’cause you’re so beautiful
My darling
Oh you’re so beautiful
You’re so beautiful
Oh
my baby
You’re so beautiful
And you’re so beautiful
Oh
my darling
Oh my baby
And you’re so beautiful
I’m gonna simile like nothing’s wrong …
talk like everything is perfect …
act like its a dream …
and pretend nothing is hurting me …
’cause I’ll find my way..
I know you’ll wake up one day..
but it’ll be too late
There seems to be an issue
Left unchecked and yet denied
A promise made without much thought
Now chained we must abide
Still you refuse to realize
The desperateness within my eyes
I wish a way, I wish to find
A safe way to leave you behind
My life would then be empty
For you complete what I am
But your life remains unfinished
While I keep you from His hand
You truely